Sorting Out His Thoughts

When I first started to read the book Waiting for the Barbarians, I was instantly entranced by its unique style. The book is told from the Magistrate’s point of view, and therefore the literary style is a reflection of the way that the Magistrate’s mind works. The book is distinguished by a very descriptive style, and the descriptions are not always positive. What I most noticed was the fact that the Magistrate described his experiences in what could sometimes be considered a brutally honest manner. He did not sugarcoat his impressions, even when they were about himself or his actions. When talking about the girl that he has taken into his household, he is particularly blunt with his descriptions. He mentions that, “I undress her, I bathe her, I stroke her, I sleep beside her- but I might equally well tie her to a chair and beat her, it would be no less intimate.”(42) This bluntness is indicative of his trying to figure things out for himself. He is confused about many things in his life, and he seeks to understand these things fully. The Magistrate’s uninfluenced descriptions are as much for his sake as they are for the reader’s sake. He describes things in as accurate a manner as he can, because his descriptions allow him to lay out his thoughts in a sensible manner. In his quest for understanding, he lays out all of the facts and then tries to make sense of them.

In the second section, the Magistrate seeks to understand more about the blind girl. Why is she blind, how was she tortured, why is he so entranced by her, what did she look like before the disfigurations- it seems like he wishes to know everything about this girl in order to achieve a deeper understanding of her essence. He mentions that he does not know why or even if he is attracted to her, saying that “she is ugly, ugly.” (46) Yet he still does not know why he is fascinated by her. His brusque descriptions show the reader of his deep confusion, and of his desire to know for certain the workings of the inner mind.

Changing Definitions

- The book Heart of Darkness is often a controversial text because of its alleged endorsement of racism
- However, one cannot call the book “racist” or “imperialist” without clearly defining what these terms mean and what they meant at the time of the book
- At the time that Conrad was writing the novel, the word “racism” did not exist, and although the phenomena of what we would call racism was definitely present, there was not a consciousness of racism as there is today
- People thought about the subject of race in very different terms than we do today
- One reason the word “racist” was not in existence was because, at the time, thinking in terms of race was so widespread that it was not considered to be irregular or negative. Therefore, a new word to define it was not needed
- However, words describing negative attitudes towards race were eventually created
- Early definitions of racism pertained to prejudices against different western countries instead of against African Americans
- This type of racism is very different from the “racist” attitudes today
- Conrad also did not consider his novel to be talking about what we would consider to be “imperialism”
- He never uses the word “imperialism” in the book, and the closest he comes is his usage of the word “colonist”
- Basically, meanings of the words “racism” and “imperialism” changed between Conrad’s time and our time
- Therefore, one needs to analyze Heart of Darkness in terms of the significance in its time, as opposed to analyzing it as compared to modern times

Jason is Always Right

Right before Quentin is discovered to be missing, the remaining members of the Compson family are sitting in the kitchen, eating breakfast. Although many may think that the following scene of Quentin’s escape is the most important event of the fourth section, I believe that the preceding scene tells us just as much about their character. Benjy, Dilsey, Mother, and Jason are the only remaining major family members, and their interactions over breakfast present a very detailed picture of how things work in the Compson household. Jason is, or course, the domineering “head of the household,” and everything that he says, goes. After all, who is going to stop him? Benjy is still not developed enough to feed himself, Luster is still a relatively young boy, and Mother, although she is older and could have authority over Jason, thinks that “it is neither [Dilsey’s] place or mine to tell Jason what to do. Sometimes I think he is wrong, but I try to obey his wishes for you all’s sakes” (278). This sentence really bothered me when I read it. If Mother thinks that something Jason does is “wrong”, why does she not try and help him do the right thing instead? And I somehow can’t see Mother doing anything that is truly for someone else’s “sake.” I just cannot understand how Mother can just completely submit her will to Jason’s. Jason even outright insults her, saying that if she cleaned the house, it would look like a “pigsty.” The fact that Mother does not even try to defend herself, and in fact seems to welcome the criticism makes her an even more infuriating character. What do you think is the true reason Mother so willingly submits to Jason? Is it for the sake of keeping the family together, or is it for her personal gain? Is she too feeble-minded to even realize what Jason is doing?

Taking a Different Approach

While researching for my article, I came upon an article called “Meaningful Images in the Sound and the Fury.” I vaguely scanned it, and was not hopeful at first. It seemed to be just another descriptive article about the motifs in the book. However, one sentence caught my eye; the article mentioned how after the three confusing and biased narratives, the fourth section is written in an unbiased manner. The article mentions then how the other three narratives serve to almost cancel each other out in a sense, so the reader can finally grasp what really happened. This struck a chord with me, because I had noticed that the first two narratives seemed to be approaching the same idea, but from opposite angles

• Meaningful Images in The Sound and the Fury

• Eben Bass
• Modern Language Notes, Vol. 76, No. 8 (Dec., 1961), pp. 728-731
• Published by: The Johns Hopkins University Press

A Mother's Love

So our class has been talking about how Quentin’s suicide may have been caused by Caddy, his father, his brother, and even Herbert Head. But what about his mother? A mother usually has a close bond with her children, and is almost always instrumental in shaping their child as a person, whether this is in a positive or negative manner. In Quentin’s case, Caroline’s mothering decidedly falls into the latter category. We do not even have to search for proof that Caroline was a bad mother to Quentin, as he often outright laments about how “if I’d just had a mother so I could say mother mother” (pg 172). Caroline was plainly never there to support Quentin, and his numerous references to his mother can lead us to conclude that Quentin was greatly affected by his mother’s lack of caring. However, there is a big difference between adversely affecting a child’s personality and driving them to commit suicide. How much of a part do you think Quentin’s mother played in developing his clearly dysfunctional personality? How do you think Caroline affected the rest of the family dynamics? Do you think she is ultimately to blame for Quentin’s death?

Short Story

While browsing the short story section in the library, I came upon a booklet titled “Interrupted Serenade” by James Hannaham. It was a random choice, but as I sat down at a nearby cubicle and started reading it, I knew that it was a fortuitous one. The story plotline focuses around the life of Lopey, a “almost ten year old” boy who lives with his father and stepmother in a middle class home. The story begins in a Police Station, where Lopey has been arrested for selling drugs. The first thing that struck me about the short story was the fact that, at nine years old, Lopey was regularly selling drugs on the street. This heavy involvement in drugs at such a young age concerns me as the reader and luckily, concerns his parents. On a side note, it is interesting that as far as I can see, Lopey himself is not a big drug user. He seems to only sell drugs and rarely, if ever, uses them. From what I have heard about drug dealers, this seems to be highly irregular behavior. Anyway, either way, this is not productive, positive behavior, so his father and stepmother send Lopey to live with his birth mother and her wealthy husband. One of the most striking pieces in the large house is a grand piano. Lopey begins to try to play by mimicking the sounds of a classical record that was playing. The family discovers that Lopey has a talent for playing piano, and they start to try and cultivate his talent.

The piano and the drug dealing represent opposing forces in Lopey’s personality, and their coexisting and clashing make up the majority of the story. I think that for my paper, I am going to talk about these opposing forces, and how this is a developmental story as well as a story about choices.

Mistakes and Consequences

Ariel Gordon

AP English

Mr. Coon

(795)

Tillie Olsen’s “I stand here Ironing” starts off by describing a telephone conversation between the narrator and what is apparently a school counselor. The counselor tells the narrator that her daughter, Emily, is “a youngster who needs help” (637). Olsen, therefore, lets the reader know early on that this will be a short story that focuses on child development. Olsen also “gives the game away”, so to speak, by telling us at the beginning that the story does not end well. Thought the plot line is generally centered around the development of Emily, it is the narrator who is telling the story, and through her eyes, we see all of the work, decisions, and doubts involved in mothering.

A famous quote tells that “Noble children can come from wicked families, and wicked children can come from noble families.” This quote is meant to alleviate the helpless feeling of parents who wonder what went wrong in their wayward child’s childhood. However, a quote more fitting for the story “I Stand Here Ironing” would be something like “Well-adjusted children come from well-adjusted families, and irresponsible children come from irresponsible families.” We, as the readers, would like to give the narrator the benefit of the doubt, but as the story goes on, it becomes clearer and clearer that Emily’s development as a child has greatly affected her personality as an adult. Her irresponsible upbringing has turned Emily into an irresponsible 19-year old who may seem to be doing well on the surface, but has hidden, barely-visible issues underneath it all.

Her mother, for her part, has truly tried her hardest to do what is best for Emily, and has truly had almost insurmountable odds placed against her. The narrator’s first roadblock was that she herself was only 19 when she gave birth to Emily, an age which is far too young to handle a child at all, let alone without any help or guidance. Emily’s father had already left her, so this young, still-teenage girl had to take care of Emily all by her lonesome. With no husband and no mother to guide her, the narrator is forced to turn to books to find a proper way to raise a child. Even though her baby’s cries to nurse have “battered [her] to trembling,” she sticks with the book’s feeding guideline. Without a father or any additional support, the narrator is forced to work long hours to support herself and the baby. She knows instinctively that she should be spending as much time as possible with the baby, but she is unable to. A part time night job just does not provide enough of an income to live on, and she is forced to abandon her to first her family, then a nursery center, then a “convalescent home.” Each time the narrator comes to retrieve her daughter, she recognizes her less and less, but the narrator has no other path to turn to.

“And even without knowing, I knew.” This simple sentence says so much about the narrator’s feelings of guilt and shame about what she put her child through. She knew that the nursery school teacher was “evil,” she knew that the people who “persuaded her at the clinic” to send Emily to an institution were wrong, and she knew that her rejection and dismissal of Emily’s cries closed a door that could never again be opened. The narrator understands these things, and does not make the same mistakes again with her second child, Susan. However, her learning from these mistakes cannot repair the damage and constant upheaval that has been present throughout Emily’s life. The one “benefit” that Emily’s childhood has given her is the ability to act. Her talent for acting is no coincidence; she has been practicing her entire life. Emily has had to act happy, to act normal, all of the time. She has acted throughout her entire life in order to assure her mother that everything is ok. Her mother wants so much to believe Emily’s act, and at some moments she truly has hope that Emily will be ok. However, at other moments, it is apparent that Emily has been too greatly affected by her upbringing, and that no amount of acting can ultimately cover that up.

As a mother, with so many forces against her, all the narrator can do is try and hope. She can only hope that her mistakes as a mother will be overcome by her daughter’s spirit and ability to adapt. She can only try to iron out the wrinkles that she created in the fabric of Emily’s life, and hope that “[Emily] is more than this dress on the ironing board, helpless in the face of the iron” (642).